I miss her.

We were supposed to be friends forever.

We were supposed to take over the world together.

Lately I have been finding myself thinking about her more and more and all I want to do is pick up the phone and call her - BUT I erased her number.

I had to. (I was always the weak one in the relationship)

It is almost as if she was bitten by a snake and I just could NOT let that poison seep anywhere near me. I couldn't leave things to chance - so close to my wedding so I had to tell her good-bye.

I just pray that one day she is able to understand why I said what I said and why I had to do what I did.

It was all out of love.

I think about her all too often and I even keep my thoughts in a small clay pot that she bought me.

I think I love her more now than I ever did - I guess I am secretly hoping that this 'extra' love will create vibrations that will reach her from a distance.

When the time is right, God will allow us to cross paths again..

AND if not - I will continue to wish her nothing but strength, happiness and clarity moving forward.